Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Performance Anxiety

I was very much looking forward to seeing my drama guys perform today for a rather silly competition, and they didn't disappoint. In fact, their confidence just before they hit the boards was quite something. And that's something I've never felt before going on stage, ever. What I feel in that thirty minute prelude is a sick dread, and what I hear in my head is the question, Why on earth do I get involved in these things?

The answer, like it did today, comes when whatever it is I'm involved in is firing on all cylinders. In a strange way it's like really being alive. An odd kind of joy.

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